Da’Antes Inferno
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As we get older we’re constantly changing and growing. we’re never done molding into the person we are meant to be just going through life one choice at a time until we learn all the lessons we need to move to the next chapter. Here I am at 25 educated on life. Graduating with honors as I maneuver its trials. I’ve failed multiple times but in my failure I found success. In my short comings I triumphed. I beat the odds set before me. one of the most damaging things I think I’ve ever done to myself was come out. It was beautiful and felt free at the time but it limited who I could be. Instead of keeping me out of a box it pushed me deeper into one. Without me ever realizing. A hole I’m still trying to climb out of. Religion. Another beast I’ve been battling. Can I be a Christian and gay? What does it mean to even be Christian?! Are Christian’s actually Christian if they can’t accept the fact that Jesus was a person of color? if not who are they?! Does slavery play a big role in Christianity and is that why it’s not talked about?! Am I going to hell? My mind at this age with no direct help or answers just spirals out of control needing a release. Something to numb the pain. Which lead me to drugs, alcoho and sexual with strangers and people that didn’t deserve my body. But we all have voids and we all learn. I would go out every weeken get drunk, fuck who I wanted and do it all over again. 3 whole years straight that was me. Killing my self. trying to drown out this hole I felt inside. Like I was missing something. Like I was waiting for someone to snap me out of it and just tell me what I needed to do.
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